What I Carry: A Memoir

What I Carry is a memoir about love that does not end when a life does.When her grandmother is placed on hospice, Grace is eight hours away, caught between responsibility and the quiet understanding that time is running out. What follows is a series of moments that feel both ordinary and irreversible: a final phone call, a twelve-hour shift spent caring for someone else's dying loved one, and a last-minute flight that brings her home just in time for the final twenty-four hours.At the foot of her grandmother's bed, Grace becomes both granddaughter and caregiver, tending to the woman who once taught her how to cook, create, and live with depth. After her death, grief does not arrive all at once, but instead settles into the spaces she left behind-in a silent house, in handwritten recipes, and in the realization that love must now be carried differently.Through memory, ritual, and creation, What I Carry explores what it means to lose someone who shaped you, and how, in the aftermath, you begin the quiet work of finding yourself again.