It's Gonna Get Messy

She built the life she was supposed to want. Then everything came crashing down.A dear friend dies. Her marriage unravels. She's laid off while alone in a foreign country as a global pandemic hits. Then, just when she thinks it can't get worse, she gets the call that her father has died. Thirty days later, beneath a full moon in rural Mexico, her father comes to her in an experience that takes her beyond her body and shatters everything she thought she knew about death. What follows is a wild, often hilarious, sometimes heartbreaking search to understand what happened-and what it means to be alive. From car crashes and chaotic hookups to psychedelic revelations, silent meditation retreats, robberies, and moments of inexplicable magic, Becca follows the questions that experience cracked open.What starts as a freefall becomes a journey through grief, consciousness, identity, and awakening-and an inquiry into something much bigger: what if we are more than the lives and bodies we've mistaken for who we are? what if we are more than our bodies, stories and the identities we've mistaken for who we are?Told with spiritual sass, hard-won wisdom, and gut-punching honesty, It's Gonna Get Messy is a deeply human memoir that reads like fiction. It's about losing the life you thought you wanted, questioning everything you thought you knew, and discovering that finding your way back to yourself may be less about becoming someone new than remembering who you were underneath it all.For readers of Glennon Doyle, Chelsea Handler, Gabrielle Bernstein, and Elizabeth Gilbert, It's Gonna Get Messy is a funny, raw, soul-stirring exploration of grief, awakening, consciousness, and what the hell it means to be a spiritual being having one very messy human experience.