I Masturbate Beside My Wife

I Masturbate Beside My Wife is not a confession. It's a quiet scream.In this stark and unflinching exploration of modern masculinity, intimacy, and invisibility, George E. Veil dismantles the ordinary routines of a married man's life to reveal something far more complex-and far less spoken about. In a world where vulnerability is often punished, masturbation is not only a metaphor, but becomes not an escape, a way of staying present in a life that no longer feels fully lived.With prose that is both brutal and lyrical, Veil invites readers into the cramped space between husband and wife, between silence and survival, between memory and meaning. This is not a book about sex. It's about loneliness in proximity. It's about what happens when emotional hunger festers behind polite smiles and shared beds. It's about a man who chooses to confront his own disappearance-not with drama, but with terrifying honesty. This is a book for readers who: - Crave raw, literary autofiction with emotional stakes- Have ever felt alone in a relationship-and hated themselves for it- Understand that vulnerability is a quiet act of rebellion- Want to see manhood redefined through self-awareness, not bravadoIf you've ever found yourself going through the motions, feeling more ghost than man, this book sees you. It won't offer easy answers. But it might make you feel a little less alone."I don't masturbate out of lust. Not even out of habit. But to anchor myself. To remind myself that I'm still here. That my body hasn't disappeared, even if I've stopped being touched." - From the book