Audacity

Unhinged I was in love, but with a woman And I never understood how that wasn't human. So I slogged through life, without acceptance, With pinpricks of tears and the feeling of ineptness. I tried to tell her I was in love But she dismissed me in reciprocation And Called me an abomination. So I walked away with my baggage of insecurities; Anxiety, my friend, decided not to leave me. I felt like I was a deformed creature So I tried to reform, I didn't want to be a breacher Of the society, of the family, I was done being the dark horse! What had I even done wrong? I was just in love! Then why did she hate me? Why did they hate me?! I never understood. Confusion, grief, anger Took minutes to turn themselves on me. Self hatred, my friend, also became a part of me. So I walked away as far as I could, withdrawing my emotions. And here I stand unhinged, and maybe a little broken